It’s the calm before the storm. I’ve got two weeks before this baby makes his debut and with child #4, I’m fully aware of the storm that awaits me. There is some comfort in knowing what to expect in the whole process and then there’s downright fear because I know what’s coming!

The contractions have already started and according to the doc my body is totally ready to go, but we’re trying to keep him in for another two weeks. Many think I’m crazy – but I have a husband who is going through midterms right now and the man can’t afford anymore stress! We’ve had a baby while he was in school once before and it’s hard – throw his full-time job in there as well and he’s already running on fumes. It’s about to get interesting.

Slowing down has been good for me, I’m recognizing moments I may not have noticed before. Bennett was having a hard time napping so I went into his room and sat in the chair to make sure he laid down and shut his eyes. It didn’t take long before he fell asleep and in the quiet dimness of his room I teared up watching him sleep. His world is about to be turned upside down and he has no clue it’s even coming. It was such a simple moment but I was mesmerized in it and sat there for almost 30 minutes with thoughts and memories swirling through my head. We’re about to open a door that will completely change our world, just as it has three times before. I’m anxious. I’m scared. I worry about my other children – and my husband.

I’m going to quietly enjoy the calm that is before me.